Randy Pausch says:
“The brick walls are there for a reason. The brick walls are not there to keep us out.
The brick walls are there to give us a chance to show how badly we want something.
Because the brick walls are there to stop the people who don’t want it badly enough.
They’re there to stop the other people.”
I keep thinking about the tall wall in front of me.
Is this the same kind of wall he talks about?
Is it really a sign that I want my dream badly enough?
This wall was not here two years ago.
Or at least it was much shorter.
Many people crossed it very easily.
Today, this wall does not feel like a test anymore.
It does not separate me from people who are less serious about their dreams.
It does the opposite.
It lets them pass and keeps me behind for months.
So I ask myself an honest question.
If I cross this wall, can I still be proud of it?
(if I manage to get through.)
For me, now, it feels nothing.
It feels like bad luck and bad timing.
If I had arrived a little earlier, I would already be on the other side.
Now I have to struggle behind the wall for a long time.
Is this struggle still worth it?
Or after I cross, will there be hundreds of people on the other side saying:
“So what? You struggled this much just to get here? It was not that hard.”